how do I go on

my heart is breaking, theres no way out, reality I dont want to face, reality is everyday. The tears keep falling , no matter what I do, day after day, all I see are memories and ghosts of happy times, echos of laugher, where to go from here, what happens next how to deal with the future when the past still hurts too much

I dont want this reality, this was not ment to be, on an on it goes, with no end, no happy ending, just blackness and emptyness, how to deal with the confusion, the questions which will never be answered, we are caught in a giant chess game , pawns in a game which we have no control over, the players not caring who they hurt and always why why why....

who to trust, who has a pure heart, take take atke, yet when the dust settles who will pick up the piesces, does any opne care, we still suffer while they profit and gain , and dont care...

2009 Timeline for Michael Jackson part 2

March 01 : In an interview to hollywood.tv, Christian Audigier reveals that Michael is about to go to London to give a press conference next march 05 in order to announce a new tour next summer!



March 03 : Michael lands via private jet of Harrod's owner Mohammed Al-Fayeds at Luton Airport, London around 2pm with Prince, Paris, Blanket and manager Dr Tohme Tohme.
They check in the hoyel Lanesborough, Park Lane.

March 04 : MJJ Productions, file a lawsuit in Los Angeles Superior Court on against Julien's Auction House. It claims founder Darren Julien promised to send Michael an inventory of sale items, but that the singer hasn't given permission to move them all.

The suit claims many of the items are "priceless and irreplaceable" and describes the attempt to sell them as "malicious, fraudulent, extreme, outrageous and without any legal justification whatsoever."

MJJ Productions authorized the auction house to remove the items from Jackson's Neverland Ranch, according to court documents, but not to sell them without Jackson's permission.

March 05 : Michael announces his last concerts in London beginning on July 08 during a short press conference at the O2 Arena. The event named "This Is It" .

The touring deal with concert promoter AEG Live was arranged by a Colony Capital associate Dr Tohme Tohme who has been Michael's manager and president of MJJ Productions for a year.
As part of the deal, AEG's corporate parent, Anschutz Corp., agreed to invest in a pet project of Mr. Jackson's, a 3-D feature film based on his song and music video "Thriller."
People close to the singer say that he is eager to return to work. "Between Anschutz and us, he's got plenty of capital," said Tom Barrack, Colony's chief executive. "He's serious, he's focused, he's healthy and he's listening."
To obtain insurance for the tour, AEG arranged for an independent physician to conduct a five-hour physical exam of Mr. Jackson. "He passed with flying colors," said AEG's Mr. Phillips.
"For the first time in his life, Michael Jackson has people around him who believe in him and look after him," said Dr. Tohme. "And are trying to help him and advance his career."

March 06 : Michael goes to see the musical "Oliver" at the Royal Theatre in London with Prince, Paris, Blanket as well as Mark Lester and his children Lucy, Harriet, Olivia & Felix.



March 08 : Michael and his entourage fly back to Los Angeles.



March 11 : Pre-sale begins on Ticketmaster for Michael's concerts. 40 dates are added.

Michael goes shopping in L.A.



March 13 : Tickets for Michael's 50 live dates at London's O2 arena sell out within 4 hours on Ticketmaster!

March 19 : Michael goes to see Dr Klein in Beverly Hills.

March 23 : Michael goes to his doctor's in Beverly Hills with Blanket.

2009 Timeline for Michael Jackson part 1

THANKS TO Dangerous Incorporated posted on MJJCOMMUNITY


January : At the MGM Grand in Las Vegas, Michael (with Blanket and Dr Tohme Tohme by his side), meets an AEG delegation headed by Philip Anschutz, its billionaire founder, AEG's chief executive Tim Leiweke, Randy Phillips, who heads up AEG Live and Paul Gongaware.
Michael signs a deal for 10 concerts in London next summer and he also accepts to submit to a rigorous medical check-up at his LA home.



January 06 : Dr Tohme Tohme confirms that Michael has leased a Bel Air mansion for $100,000 a month. Tohme Tohme says the pop icon wanted to be closer to "where all the action is" in the entertainment industry.

January 14 : Michael goes to see Dr Klein in Beverly Hills with Blanket.



January 30 : Christian Audigier visits Michael at his Bel Air home.


February 06 : Michael goes to see Dr Klein in Beverly Hills

February 07 : Michael goes to the Bel Air Hotel for a business meeting with Dr Tohme.

February 10 : Michael goes to see Dr Klein in Beverly Hills

February 13 : Michael hosts a party for Prince's 12th birthday at the Bel Air home.

February 18 : The medias reveal that Michael is in secret talks with AEG Live to stage his pop revival with up to 30 dates at the O2 arena in London.

February 21 : Michael hosts a party for Blanket 7th birthday at the Bel Air home.

February 27 : Michael goes shopping with Christian Audigier in L.A.