how do I go on

my heart is breaking, theres no way out, reality I dont want to face, reality is everyday. The tears keep falling , no matter what I do, day after day, all I see are memories and ghosts of happy times, echos of laugher, where to go from here, what happens next how to deal with the future when the past still hurts too much

I dont want this reality, this was not ment to be, on an on it goes, with no end, no happy ending, just blackness and emptyness, how to deal with the confusion, the questions which will never be answered, we are caught in a giant chess game , pawns in a game which we have no control over, the players not caring who they hurt and always why why why....

who to trust, who has a pure heart, take take atke, yet when the dust settles who will pick up the piesces, does any opne care, we still suffer while they profit and gain , and dont care...